Caden Bryce

(A few hours old. (Photo by Matt Ryb)

I am a day late because my computer was being fixed, but yesterday was Caden's 4th birthday! I remember the day I found out I was expecting. It was a pretty crazy time in my life. I was battling depression, a failing marriage and then I found out I was expecting. Don't get me wrong, I was excited but scared all at the same time. Things were not great in my life. For some reason the first few months were a daze, I was sick, and spotting and stressed, but I remember clearly the day we found out he was a BOY! I was thrilled, I am not sure what happened but I instantly felt bonded to this baby inside of me! My entire outlook was changed, not because he was a boy, but because seeing him for the first time, this beautiful little peanut, it made him real and I was completely in love.

My entire pregnancy I had my mind made up that I was going to try for a VBAC. I intended to have Madison completely natural but she had other plans, haha, and she ended up as a c-section. So I was determined this time. By the time I was in my 8th month my Dr. broke the news, she said it's not going to happen. She thought he was too big to risk it, so we scheduled another c-section for March 16. And with the date set , it just made the whole waiting thing that much harder. I was so anxious , I could hardly contain myself.

When the day finally arrived it was actually snowing! Yes, in the middle of March! So we geared up and headed in. I was scheduled for 9am but didn't even go back to the OR until 12:30. Can you believe someone had the nerve to go into labor that day, and the Dr. had to go deliver another baby? Sheesh! (I'm totally kidding!!) Anyway we went back and preped for surgery and at 1:01pm my little miracle entered the world weighing 8lbs 6oz and 20 inches long! The time after the surgery was 100x better then with Madison, they knocked me out and took her to the NICU. With him I got to spend those minutes with my beautiful son in the recovery room. I was so much in love. He was PERFECT! I felt instantly that we were bonded. He was going to be a mommas boy! And he absolutely is hehe.

He is my little cuddle bug, he will sit and cuddle with me on the couch and watch TV for hours.  And I can't believe how smart and funny he is. Always making us laugh. I just can't believe it has been four years already! Where has the time gone?

Happy Birthday my special little man! I couldn't be more blessed to have you as my little boy! You are such a joy and I thank God everyday that He gave me you! I am so proud of you and I love you more then life itself! (And by the way, could you slow down a little bit? At this rate you will be a teenager the next time I blink. And I'm not ready for that  yet! :) )

And We Move Forward...

Things are moving forward in the house hunting. We went Friday and Sunday and I fell in love! We found the perfect house for us. I LOVE it. We put the contract in today. Please pray that everything works out accordingly. I am so excited about it. It is a split level, 5 br 2 bath. It is enough room for all of the kids to have their own , although we will be putting Alanna and Maddie together until she gets a little older, since there are only 3 bedrooms on the first floor and the other 2 are on the second. But we have a lot of much needed space. Fingers crossed that they accept our offer and we will be homeowners very soon!

On another note; I am not sure if something is in the air tonight but the kids and the dog are driving me crazy! Madison has been whining for the past 2 1/2 hours over everything! The dog has been NON STOP barking all afternoon, which is not like her at all! All I know is I am on my last straw and in about 5 minutes they are heading to bed early, otherwise I may unravel!

Things to come!

I have mentioned before that my parents were moving to Delaware and I was not happy about them selling their home. Well my mom and I were talking about Leo and I buying it. I was apprehensive because when we tried to get a mortgage in PA in December we weren't quite where we needed to be. But on a whim I called the Realtor to see if we could get one here and we finally are able to buy our own home!!!! I am so excited! Even though I decided to call because of my moms house I don't think we are going to buy it because they are asking way to much! So the Realtor sent me a list of homes (which were 200 btw) and I narrowed it down to 35. So we start the journey tomorrow to finding our perfect home, because once we move this time that is it! haha.

On another note, I started back at the weight loss center. I am so mad at myself for putting so much weight back on,and I have my dance recital in May and I don't want to look like this on stage. My goal is to lose the 25 lbs I lost before plus another 10. Either way I am starting back on that path.

So all kinds of exciting stuff are coming in the next few months and I can't wait!!

Blog Slacker!

I have been a total blog slacker lately. Sorry. Things have been crazy busy around here and despite the 1 recent day of snow it has been beautiful outside. So I have been doing what I could to be outside! I am so ready for Spring!

We had a "grownup weekend" this past weekend with some friends. It was wonderful!! We went to Deep Creek we 4 other couples. We had so much fun!!A whole weekend with no kids and no responsibilities. Staying up late and sleeping in, pure bliss! We were going to go snow tubing but when we got to the ski resort they were sold out so we went on the ski coaster instead.

We also added a new addition to our family.........

Meet Snickers! She's our new Guinea Pig.

Molly (our puppy) reeeeeallly wants to get her. She has been sitting in front of the cage since we brought her home and is whimpering. She is driving me crazy. I'm not sure if she is just curious or really wants to eat her. lol Either way I am going keep Molly away from her.