Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Being a mom...

Being a mom is the hardest job that anyone could have, being a stay at home mom is even harder. If I hear "oh you're so lucky you get to sit home with your kids all day" one. more. time. I'm going to kick someone. Now don't get me wrong, I am lucky enough to be home with my kids, but the last thing I do is sit around. I am responsible for making these little people turn into awesome big people, who love the Lord. The decisions I make daily will effect the lives of these three little people. Have you ever sat and listened to your children play? Yep, that right there is your parenting at it's finest. There have been many times that I have cringed listening to Madison and Caden play house. Whoops.

There are many many times where I am ready to throw in the towel and go back to work. And many times that I am ready to pull my hair out....almost daily. But in the end I love my job. For those who think that being a stay at home mom isn't a job, let me break it down for you. How often do your co workers cry and throw themselves on the floor in a tantrum? My guess is not as often as mine. I get it daily, most of the time more then once a day. On top of dealing with tantrums when I say the word "No," I am a maid, these little monsters make quite the mess. I know my house is hardly ever clean, at least not during the day, but how can anyone keep a spotless house with 3 young kids? If you do please, please come and share your secret with me and I will be eternally grateful. I am a least three times a day, but always more. My kids would eat all day if I let them. I am a referee , I can't count the many times a day I hear "He hit me, she hit me, she stole my toy, and that's mine!" And don't even get me started on the yucky stuff being a mom entitles, things you can't even imagine.... unless you're a mom. I never imagined that I would clean up and touch some of the things I have without even flinching. I guess you become desensitized to it all once you get puked on for the first time. But mixed in with all of that not so fun stuff, you get all of the wonderful jobs as well. I get to be a teacher , an encourager, a nurse to kiss all of the pain out of the boo boos, and a cuddler. And I love every minute of it. God has blessed me with these awesome little ones and it's my job to raise them to know Him and follow Him. And at the end of the day that is what I strive to accomplish.

So while I am constantly exhausted, crazy , and busy, I wouldn't trade it for the world. Every day I am learning along with them. I am learning to make conscious decisions that will mold and shape my kids. I am trying to lead by example and it's tough but with lots of prayer we get through each day. I couldn't ask for anything more.

Monday, February 20, 2012


I have been terrible with keeping up this year. Things have been less then exciting around here , other then my best friends engagement. We went dress shopping today, which was lots of fun.

Valentines day was nice. Leo and I went out for a very much needed dinner, where he gave me a beautiful Pandora bead for my bracelet. Then to see The Vow, which wasn't all that great but Channing Tatum is easy on the eyes so it was worth it.

Oh and my ex husband is moving to MO. Which I can't say I will miss all....but Maddie sure does. She was really upset when she came home last night. I explained to her that it was OK to be sad and that she can still talk to him whenever she wants. My heart breaks for her because she really looks up to her dad. Caden doesn't quite understand yet because he is so young but I'm sure he will once everything settles. The good part is I will get more time with the kids now. Co parenting is tough to say the least, but I'm glad I have an amazing support system with Leo because he is such a great daddy.

On the media front, which is old news now but Whitney Houston passed away. It's definitely a tragic loss to the music world. She had her demons of course but she had an amazing voice that will be missed. I love this quote and she sure lived up to it.

And that is enough with the rambling tonight. I didn't really have anything worth writing about but I felt the need to update.